Amyleigh. Winchester, England.
An archaeologist & RE specialist with an abundance of love for makeup, nature & architecture photography, comics, taxidermy & a good cuppa.
Foundation Free & Happy
For a girl who loves makeup and has always worn it if she has needed to leave the house since around the age of 12, this blog title was something I never expected to sit down and type yet, here we are. A couple of months ago I posted all about why I wear makeup and how my reasons for doing so have changed dramatically over the years, but one thing I never thought I'd do is be foundation free everyday and most shockingly, feel confident about it. If you've read this blog from the start, or my previous blogs from the last several years, or you know me, you will be well acquainted with an Amyleigh who used to wear a mask of matte foundation and nothing else would do. I was an Estée Lauder Double Wear, topped with MAC's Studio Fix powder girl through and through and that was my daily routine for such a long time. As I got older, I dabbled more and more with other brands and I guess I just started to look for other things. Being extremely oily and fighting acne meant I always wanted to keep my skin looking as matte as possible but now? I guess I'm getting used to that being an option only for the first hour or two of my day.
So this all came about when I went to visit my best friend during July. I had been away to Rome with Matt, melted in the heat everyday, wearing either no foundation or barely any and came back to the UK super pleased to hide my blemishes and oils again. But then I went up to Manchester, got far too drunk and wanted/proceeded to vomit my guts up after my first night there so putting on foundation was the *last* thing on my mind. I managed to slap on some concealer and steady my shaking hungover hands enough to draw on my brows and that was enough effort for the day. Funnily enough, I couldn't be bothered to put any foundation on again the next day. Or the next. Or yep, the next. I came back home to Winchester and didn't wear any for a few days then put a full face on one day to go and get tattooed and I have never felt so gross, tacky to the touch, and self-conscious in my life. As soon as I left the house I had an overwhelming feeling to wash my face and start again. It just felt so restricting. I felt like I didn't look like me and I felt like the makeup was actually making my oils worse when I used to think they were helping mask them.
So once I got home that day, I swore I wouldn't wear any unless I felt it was really necessary and I've not looked back since. I'm still wearing everything else - concealer, translucent powder, brows, and mascara - but foundation? Good riddance. My skin has been so grateful for the transition too. I no longer worry so much about my blemishes and just deal with the fact that they're there and sometimes they can't be covered up that well if at all and oh well, what a shame. It's not the end of the world. I've noticed that, although my skin is still pretty oily, it doesn't look *that* bad even if I've not been able to check my face in a mirror for over 7 hours whilst I've been at work because the oil hasn't had any foundation to break up and make look cakey. Not wearing it is giving my pores a chance to breathe too and yeah they might be big and noticeable, but I feel so much cleaner and fresher each day, all day.
I absolutely adore makeup if you couldn't tell by a weekly theme of posts on this blog, but I also love the fact that my interest in it and my reasons for being interested in it have changed. No longer am I trying lots of new and different products because I need to find something to cover up my skin; something to hide behind. No longer am I so self-conscious that I'm checking in the mirror every half hour to make sure my face hasn't slipped or started to crack and crease. Sure, I still don't have the level of confidence I think every girl *should* have. I'm not sitting here saying I love myself but I am getting there and that's what's important. I'm starting to accept the fact that I'm always going to have acne and you know what? That's fine. I'm always going to be an oily son of a gun and that's okay too. It's just something I need to learn to manage and come to terms with, not something I have to disguise in fear of what other people might think. I also totally need to come to terms with the fact that my brows are just non-existent and that you all now are probably looking at them thinking "wow, Amy, you really do need to paint them on everyday don't you" but that will be the next step for me to work on.
I don't really know what I wanted to get out of this post but I just wanted to make others aware that if you think positively and push yourself out of your comfort zone just that little bit more and more, you can begin to accept the parts of you that used to make you dislike yourself - the things that made you feel ugly as a person. It might seem like a vain thing to be so hung up on and you know what? It completely is but if you're someone who suffers from acne, someone who doesn't have the time or energy to apply makeup everyday, or if you're just someone who thinks they rely on it too much. Try having some makeup free days and see how it goes. If it doesn't empower you, I don't know what will.